Today there are 2 blogs in one! :)

February 8, 2010

... Life and its many steps ...

Lately life has been really good well except for work! ... Work ... well let me explain! Work has been really good! my schedule has just been changing a lot! ... so that has been hard because I have found some things that I have wanted to do that seem to be at the same time as work lately ... anyway! I'm not going to be very "deep" in this blog so don't expect anything crazy ok! :) ... Right now I am sitting in the Wilkinson Center waiting for some friends to come back from there class because I don't actually work till 5 today ... Man I just wish I was back in school so bad! I have been applying and such but it just has been seeming like no matter what I do I just can't get back into school! ... My family really wants me to go back home and finish getting my schooling at the Jr College in California and maybe I should but I really like it out here in Provo! ... Man I am just one really stubborn person! ... Stink! haha ... anyway I'm excited for life anyway ... I have been thinking back on my life a lot lately and man oh man have I been through a lot ... just in this past year! And I know that it has taken a large toll on me! I just need to stop thinking of all of the things that havent gone through in my life and focus on the things that might and will eventually go through for me! I have not been dating a lot lately mainly because I have been so scared of getting back in that whole scene .... I feel that I am not really able to keep a relationship anymore, and if I do it wont be a "real" one ... you know ..? Anyway ... I have been thinking a lot about the lord and the roll he has and is playing in my life! The lord Has been next to me every step of the way and I have been the one who has been shutting him out! I keep on thinking of the what if's and maybes ... That is my problem! I am failing to see the second pair of foot prints in the sand next to me! I need to let him in, "reach out again Naomi!" I know he knows I love him and that I will always try my best to do all I can for him but that sometimes I loose sight of my path and even though I might be on the right track I am blind for some of it too! and that is where I need him the most! I need to let him help me! I cant do it all on my own! No one can!




February 9, 2010

The Infinite Power of Hope

I was just thinking of all the things I am missing in my life and I remembered a video on lds.org that my roommate showed me a while back! I have been letting dispair overcome me! ... I mean don't get me wrong Life has been really good for me lately but I have been forgetting about the love that my Heavenly Father has for me and shows me everyday! I have been concealing feelings of hurt and feelings of well betrayal get to me! ... I have not been doing what I should be doing ... and that is forgiving! I have been holding a grudge against someone for a while and it is time to stop with that! it is only going to hold me back! My life has been good! So why have I been holding on to this for so long!? It is now time to let go! and to let the past be the past! I still have hope and now I need to continue on with the little bit that I have! Anyway just some thoughts ... Hope is needed! The lord loves us and wants the best for us! Anyway the movie brings up so much more but thats the basics that I found I need to work on I love all the photographs and such in the movie and the true message so if anything I hope you get something from this movie! Love you all!