one step after another

Has it been long enough? :)

2010-11-15T22:37:00.002-07:00

Well well well... so Life has been good to me! :) I love being with Nathan and I love that my job is at hours that are most fitting to me! :) Life is good! :) Nathan is so busy with School that I barely get to see him during the week but it gives me time to get things done and when I really miss him I catch up on other things in the lab while he is doing his school work with his lab partner. Even though we don't talk and sometimes don't even sit right next to each other, its nice to be in the same room! :) Nothing much has been going on. Thanksgiving is coming up and I'm excited to go home and see everyone for the weekend! :) Ill miss Nathan but it will be a good miss! :) Other then that nothing much is new just wanted to update you all! :) *Over and out. ;)

The lords blessings

2010-04-13T20:03:00.003-06:00

Well life has been stressful and complicated for me these past weeks but after everything that has happened I KNOW that the lord has been there the whole time and was there to catch me when I thought everything had crumbled to pieces, he made me realize that it is all part of a greater plan! :) ♥ My heart is so full of love!! I don't know where life is going to take me now but I do know that the lord is taking care of me! I know that he knew that if I had another failed relationship that I would just want to give up and that I would want to stop trying because it all just hurts too much!! I have no doubt that the lord knows me so well and that right now he is helping me SO much! None of this is me! Its him! He truly does love his children! anyway things have been going really well! :) I'm interested to see where life takes me now! :) till then I love you all! :) ♥

Changes and great life steps! :)

2010-03-09T19:14:00.002-07:00

Well life has been so good for me! I have started a new job with Pinnacle Security and I am scared right now of being new, but I know that eventually I will get the hang of it! :) This week is a crazy week because I will be juggling two jobs! but just this week! Its my last week at Brick Oven! :) haha so I'm going to miss everyone there but its time to move on! ANYWAY ... Life is good! I went down to California this past week and I had so much fun! I miss my family, so its good when I get to see them! I still want to move back there sometimes but then I remember that for some reason right now I feel I am in the right place! I got my answer a while ago and I will just continue to do the best I can! :) But it was so fun seeing my little nephew and baby sister! They are just SO cute!!! I love them! Of course I loved seeing my mom again! I love that woman so much! She is just so amazing! She is my strength! There is no other better woman! Anyway it was good I got my little car (Geo, Metro) and just got a lot done that I needed to get done! :) But it is good to be back in Provo now even though it was SO hard to drive away from my home in California! ... It is nice to be back! Nathan was waiting for me when I got back so that was SO nice to see him when I got back I hadn't seen him for seven days! thats a long time! Especially since before I left he surprised me by asking me to be his girlfriend! haha Yeah! BIG step! but I feel good about this for now so we will see where it goes! :) We basically decided that we like each other and we have been basically dating now since the end of January so we want to see where it might go if it goes! :) I like it! :) So a big step for me after everything but I think this is good! :) I'm being careful and watching my back still but with Nathan I feel that I don't really need to he is a different kind of boy! And I love it! He is just so amazing and surprises me everyday! He hasn't let me down yet so its just purely wonderful! I just hope I don't let him down in anyway! I feel so good when I'm around him I feel he sees me for the Naomi that I really am and he accepts me for all of me! its just nice to be seen for me and not for an expectation of who he thinks I should be! :) I like him! :) so ... anyway thats all thats new! life is good! :) ♥ love you all!

-Naomi

Another fun Weekend!

2010-02-22T13:22:00.006-07:00

Ok so I have been trying out my baking skills lately and luckily for me February is a great time to try it what with Valentines day and Birthdays and all!! :) So guess what I did this weekend? ... I made another cake haha I know its the easiest thing ever from a box but I'm still proud! ... I made a cake for Nathan it was his Birthday on the 20th and I had to work all day on that day so I thought it only fitting to make a cake on Sunday for him to enjoy his face was priceless! I just enjoy sharing the love! :) haha

Nathans Surprised face! I got him good! :)

He likes it! YAY!

Making a wish!

He thought it taste good! So Yay for me! :)

Christina pretending to beat him up on his birthday! :) Rude! :) haha

... Anyway other then making cakes Life for me has only been getting better! Life has been a very long journey for me and things have been good! I have had my ups and downs and lately I have been having more ups then downs! So I am hoping that maybe it will stay that way for me! I have been getting to know new people and I have been starting to date and be totally ok with the whole dating scene again! I'm loving it but I don't know what all is going to happen so I'm not going to talk much about that ... but other then that I have been doing so well! :) I am still trying to apply for school and I am getting a new job with a better schedule so I am very happy about that! :) I have been missing my family tons and I am hoping to be able to go visit them this next week! Things are just good! I have such great people around me always but as I said I am always ready for that possible fall! So we will see what the lord has in store for me! whatever he wants me to learn I will learn, right? :) So these next couple of moths it will be interesting to see where my blogs lead! :) till then I love you all! :)

Valentines Day!

2010-02-14T18:56:00.009-07:00

I used to always dislike this "holiday" but this year I feel very different about it!! Mainly because I actually did something and it was SO fun!!! :) ♥ I have some pictures! so if you want you can just look at those but for Valentines day I made Cookies with a guy named Nathan! :) He is such a sweet heart! We made homemade Oreo Cookies! MMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmm! SO Yummy! anyway and then I made a cake (For my good friend Alisha's Birthday) and made my own Frosting, because I didn't have any store bought frosting! I was so proud of myself! :) anyway Life has been so good and Valentines day was great! (for the first time ever!) Anyway so I decorated my apartment because my roommate had all this Valentines stuff and I knew she would enjoy having it all up so thats what I did! ;) haha ... anyway Valentines was super fun! I hope that you all enjoyed it as much as I did! :) I love you all! ♥

Haha! He wont like me for putting this picture up! ;)

HUGE Cookie! :) YUM!!!

Today there are 2 blogs in one! :)

2010-02-08T13:41:00.011-07:00

February 8, 2010

... Life and its many steps ...

Lately life has been really good well except for work! ... Work ... well let me explain! Work has been really good! my schedule has just been changing a lot! ... so that has been hard because I have found some things that I have wanted to do that seem to be at the same time as work lately ... anyway! I'm not going to be very "deep" in this blog so don't expect anything crazy ok! :) ... Right now I am sitting in the Wilkinson Center waiting for some friends to come back from there class because I don't actually work till 5 today ... Man I just wish I was back in school so bad! I have been applying and such but it just has been seeming like no matter what I do I just can't get back into school! ... My family really wants me to go back home and finish getting my schooling at the Jr College in California and maybe I should but I really like it out here in Provo! ... Man I am just one really stubborn person! ... Stink! haha ... anyway I'm excited for life anyway ... I have been thinking back on my life a lot lately and man oh man have I been through a lot ... just in this past year! And I know that it has taken a large toll on me! I just need to stop thinking of all of the things that havent gone through in my life and focus on the things that might and will eventually go through for me! I have not been dating a lot lately mainly because I have been so scared of getting back in that whole scene .... I feel that I am not really able to keep a relationship anymore, and if I do it wont be a "real" one ... you know ..? Anyway ... I have been thinking a lot about the lord and the roll he has and is playing in my life! The lord Has been next to me every step of the way and I have been the one who has been shutting him out! I keep on thinking of the what if's and maybes ... That is my problem! I am failing to see the second pair of foot prints in the sand next to me! I need to let him in, "reach out again Naomi!" I know he knows I love him and that I will always try my best to do all I can for him but that sometimes I loose sight of my path and even though I might be on the right track I am blind for some of it too! and that is where I need him the most! I need to let him help me! I cant do it all on my own! No one can!

February 9, 2010

The Infinite Power of Hope

I was just thinking of all the things I am missing in my life and I remembered a video on lds.org that my roommate showed me a while back! I have been letting dispair overcome me! ... I mean don't get me wrong Life has been really good for me lately but I have been forgetting about the love that my Heavenly Father has for me and shows me everyday! I have been concealing feelings of hurt and feelings of well betrayal get to me! ... I have not been doing what I should be doing ... and that is forgiving! I have been holding a grudge against someone for a while and it is time to stop with that! it is only going to hold me back! My life has been good! So why have I been holding on to this for so long!? It is now time to let go! and to let the past be the past! I still have hope and now I need to continue on with the little bit that I have! Anyway just some thoughts ... Hope is needed! The lord loves us and wants the best for us! Anyway the movie brings up so much more but thats the basics that I found I need to work on I love all the photographs and such in the movie and the true message so if anything I hope you get something from this movie! Love you all!

Its all about the mask! :)

2010-02-04T11:32:00.007-07:00

This past weekend I went to a Mascaraed Ball with a good friend of mine that we decided to go to simply because it looked like it would be a fun event and the Ball was for Charity! :) Anyway I went my good friend JD from my ward he is just a very good friend who is willing to go on adventures with anyone and this time I was lucky enough to get him for this dance! anyway we went to get his costume (which was like the Phantom) and then I wore one of my old formal dresses! :) Anyway we went to dinner and then the dance and afterward we watched Finding Nemo with a bunch of friends! anyway here are some pictures of the fun event! :)

Oh and by the way I was lucky to get the pictures I did because JD normally doesnt take pictures but I told him he had to this time! :) so yay for the 3 I got! :) It was a fun night! :) And I was the only one with that mask!! :) It was so COOL! :) haha anyway so that was my Friday! :) Way fun! :) OH And I forgot to tell you but that night I really felt like I was in Phantom of the Opera times because the dance was held at the old historic Courthouse in Provo and there were so many AWESOME costumes that just made you feel in the time period! :) OH and a boy proposed to his girl on the steps inside so just an all together great night! :) anyway laters! till next time! :)

Taking Pictures!

2010-01-27T10:39:00.016-07:00

Ok so I have a camera that I like to call my baby! It is a Canon 40d EOS and well I havent taking it out in a while to take pictures! But just recently I did! Last year my best friend and now Roommate Jenny went to take pictures at Bridal Veil Falls and those pictures turned out BEAUTIFULLY! Mainly because my model is such a Beautiful girl! So I couldnt really go wrong! So anyway we decided to go take more pictures this year but in the snow! We went up to Bridal Veil again this year only to find out there was too much snow! haha and well we were not prepared to Hike in deep wet snow so we decided to find somewhere else and we stumbled upon a park closer to Provo! It was perfect for the pictures we wanted! I even got some taken of myself! I wasnt all ready (meaning makeup) or anything but I think they look good none the less!! :) Being behind the camera and then in front of the camera are two totally different things! Anyway I am also trying to build a portfolio because I am thinking of minoring in Photography so these Im sure will help! :) anyway! Enjoy here are some of my favorites! :)

and she was nice enough to snap some of me! :)

anyway I hope you all enjoyed and please if you have comments on these pictures PLEASE feel free to express them it will only help me to learn! :) thanks all! love ya! :)

The Missing Piece?

2010-01-22T01:33:00.004-07:00

My whole life I have been looking, learning and figuring out who I am and whats next. My whole life I have been putting together my puzzle, piece by piece, one by one you start to figure out that you are putting together a beautiful picture! Something that has a story to tell! Something with meaning! Now sometimes in puzzles you get stuck with a middle piece that wont fit anywhere yet so you put it to the side till you can put more of the puzzle together! Sometimes you even are able to put random parts of the puzzle together! before you can find a place for them in the actual masterpiece! ... your thought is always what am I missing? what will be the next piece that I can put in here!? ... I feel that this relates a lot to my life ... and Im sorry but metaphors are really the only way I can think I guess in order to make sense in my head at least so please ... bare with me! :) it just struck me today while I was talking to a friend who is now moving on with his life but something he said really struck me today! I couldn't stop thinking about it! ... well obviously because I am writing a blog about it at 2am ... but this thing he said to me stuck in my thoughts so much that this is the only way I can think to maybe make sense of it? ... or if not I'm just talking to talk ... anyway ... now this is an old friend who ... well the past is past but this friend said to me today that he was sorry nothing worked out between us, and get this, as he was being so sweet and explaining to me, he said that even though he liked me there was something missing, something that he just couldn't make right in his head ... now the thing that struck me most is when he said that there was something missing ... this struck me hard mainly because, one I have been told this so many times!! and two lately I have been thinking of my life puzzle ... I personally have been thinking that there is something I need to learn, something that I need before I can move on! Something missing! now I know this is silly of me but I truly feel that the reason I have not kept a reasonable relationship is because I really am missing something! I need to make my life right before I can even think of getting in a relationship!

OH MAN! it is just starting to make sense to me! I have been searching so hard for what I thought I needed that I forgot that I just needed to stop looking and start learning! The lord is the one! He is the only one and he knows what I need and when I need it!

Being out here in Provo gets to me after a while! All of the marriage/relationship stuff! So often it gets me down, rejection after rejection, or for some date after date and still, nothing but friends! what is it that we are missing? what else do we have to do to finally be able to find that one person who cares for you more then anyone on this earth? What else do I have to do to find that man who will want to fight for me? or to just love me for me!? ... I know we have all been through this ... And life can end up sucking a lot when you realize that your feelings are a lot more then you can handle!!

My life has not been the smoothest track when it comes to the subject of boys! I am the kind of girl who jumps before there is even a safety net in place! (leaves a lot of room for injuries) Boys have always been a big part of my life! when I was 5 or 6 years old I had a wedding ceremony held outside in my front yard! My neighbor was the groom, my friends in the neighborhood were all there and I walked down that aisle (our brick walkway) with my head held high in my prettiest (hand me down) dress with a bunch of beautiful wild flowers (weeds) in my hand. What girl has not wanted to feel that kind of love? that kind of devotion? ... We grow up thinking that one day we will have that one special day in our lives ... but we never were taught how to get there ... I mean yes when we are in Young men/Young Women we are taught the standards and the proper steps but we are never taught how to handle the feelings of hurt and disappointment when you don't get asked out to your first dance, or when you get older and are finally able to go on group dates but no one will ever ask you? or what about when you finally get a boyfriend, what do you do when he breaks up with you in front of all of your friends, just to humiliate you? what do you do when your first love dumps you right before the prom you have planned so long for? ... and if that's not enough what do you do when you graduate High School and you find out your boyfriend has been cheating on you and yet he still ends up being the one to dump you? what do you do then? ... and just when you think its about over and you are SO close to "walking down that aisle" what do you do when the Man you said yes to no longer wants the same thing and leaves you a month before the big day? what do you do then? you move on and try again right? ... but then what happens when you try to pick up again and you are met with another "it just doesn't feel right" what then? ....... No one prepared us for all the heart ache! no one prepared us for the trip to "happily ever after" ... but then again no one said it would be easy! Giving up is one option that I have not tried and I am not saying that I will but ... not trying so hard is something I think might be a good thing for me! I need to find my missing piece! Somehow through all of the hurt and disappointment something gets lost ... you learn more and you understand more that through much sorrow is GREAT joy!

I have realized that there is something missing and that I need to find myself and be comfortable with myself before I can let someone else in ... at least that's the only thing I can come up with! for the first time in my life I have realized that dating is not really something that I like to do! I have learned that its ok to take my time! Life is full of surprises and I am SO ok with it! For the most part! I need to find out what that missing feeling is! what is it that I am missing to create this missing feeling ... I mean sure it could just be that I have not found that right guy but I do not believe that there is only one person out there for us! I believe that there are many we just need to realize and open our eyes to what is around us and stop complaining about what we dont have when in reality the lord has given us so much! he has given us life and so many people and choices and just everything! ... anyway! my life is a puzzle! some parts are harder to piece together then others but through this life I know joy will be found but in order to get to that joy I must experience sorrow! ... or else how would we know what Joy feels like?

just some songs I was thinking about :)

... Life as I know it ...

2010-01-15T00:48:00.027-07:00

Lately I have gotten into the habit of staying up WAY too late!! For no reason at all!

This is something I really need to work on stopping! Mainly because I need more sleep! But also because I am finding myself constantly getting tired and pushing the snooze button one too many times in the morning even after I have had a full nights rest!!

I have gotten in the mood of just wanting to lay in bed for days! and I know that once I fall asleep, I sleep! I find myself a VERY deep sleeper! and I sometimes think its a very scary thing because, believe it or not I like to be awake, but sometimes I find it hard to find something worth while to wake up to ...

Sometimes extra sleep can be a good thing but most times its not such a good thing! I have been feeling extra lazy and well I feel I have gotten to the point of not really caring anymore ... and it actually kind of strikes me as scary!

...I don't want to be known as the girl that is forgetful, lazy and is just all together lost!...

Friends I am going to be honest with you! I love life! and a lot of times I wonder what I'm doing here! Why I am continuing to stay where I am and What I am going to do with what comes next! ... I am constantly intimidated by everyone around me! All of these wonderful people I live with, Go to Church with and even work with! Friends! You all scare the living daylights out of me!! I feel at times that I will never be able to stand up next to all these amazing people around me! I find myself trying to fit in, trying to learn more about who's who, whats what and everything else! ... I mean I have been trying so hard to figure out whats going on in this world that I am realizing that I myself am getting well ... overwhelmed ...

I have been thinking back to when I was a little girl a lot lately! ...

I was so youthful ... I knew what I knew and I was ok with it ... I listened to the Beatles and the Beach boys always, I was in love with N'SYNC and Brittany Spears (when she was younger) ... I didn't even realize how "uncool" I really was (or still am ...)

I never listened to anything I didn't think my parents wouldn't like mainly because I wanted and still want to make them happy! I never wanted to do anything that would make them not be proud of me! My parents are my life! I love them with all my heart and soul! They have helped me become who I am and I think too many times I blame them for stupid things ... Things that really don't even matter!! My mom used to always tell me when I was younger to always blame her if there was ever something I didn't want to do, but was too scared to admit that it was just me that didn't want to do it! ... My mom helped me grow a love for music that I think has been put on the back burners for too long! When I was a little girl I used to play the Piano all the time like all of my other brothers and sisters! I remember writing songs when I was younger then writing a simple melody to it and then practicing that ... I played the Violin for 6 years of my life and LOVED it! ... WOW! ... I think that right now I am just writing to write but I remember having such a passion for music! I dont know artists and I don't know much about whats "in" But I do know what I like ... what makes me feel good and what touches me as a person ...

Lately I have been looking back a lot! back into my past and then looking at where I am today!

In middle school all I wanted was to be accepted, and yet I carried a Violin and had a Rolling Backpack (yes the ever popular rolling backpacks)...

in high school I tried to figure things out and learned a little more about myself so I still played my violin but didn't carry it around anymore and upgraded to the Jansport backpack which eventually I got rid of and traded to carrying a purse and my binder ... haha ... anyway ... who really cares ... right I'm just rambling now ...

... Anyway ...

My point is for todays blog is that I have come a long way I moved out on my own ... to Utah of all places ... for who knows why but because of it I have faced more trials and set backs and just overall joys then I ever would of thought possible and even though today or tomorrow or next week might really stink!!! .... when I look at the overall picture my life has been turning out well! I still love music more then anything in this world! It touches a piece of my soul that nothing else on this earth ever can touch! and I have learned to love those around me unconditionally even though in the end they may still end up hurting me!!

There is so much more to me then what meets the surface and I know that if thats true for me that that is even more true for others! and I can only hope to continue putting myself out there all vulnerable and such to get hurt 9 times out of 10 so that that 1 time I don't get hurt it will only mean that much more! Like Forest Gump says "Life is like a box of chocolate, you never know what you're gonna get" Friends! I know that there is more to this life and all of this heartache, learning and joy is for a reason! Sometimes there is more heartache then joy but how else would we learn right? We don't always get what we want! Sometimes we need to get to the point of not caring and being comfortable with ourselves before we can gain true joy!! How can we expect others to love us when we don't love ourselves!! The lord loves us and only wants the best for us so why let him down!? Continue to strive for your best and he will help us through! I know he will even though at times I have my doubts too! ... I love you all and I will write another confusing blog another time! till next time! night!

A link to Colbie Caillat-Feelings show :)

P.S. I love Colbie Caillat Music a lot .. if you haven't heard her stuff I recommend listening to her stuff! :) ♥ love it! :) K night!

... Changes ...

2010-01-12T23:55:00.003-07:00

When changes come in our life we either like them or most of the time we don't! ...
I have been thinking a lot about how life has changed for me over the years, since I was that little girl looking in the mirror hoping that one day things would be different, that I would be different ... I have been thinking about all of the ups and downs of my life, ... I feel that a lot has been down ... but then I stop to think of all of the ups! ... all of the changes I have made ... I am different and I didn't even realize it till today! ... I went to a work out class with my roommate ... and well I didn't really get much from it ... just the urge to work out more ... so I decided I would go to the smith field house here on campus and run a little bit, just to get my heart pumping and sweat rolling! ... but before I got there I ran into a friend from my ward who was looking for his roommates and other friends who were going to play volleyball or basket ball ... anyway we finally found them and I started my run! This was at around 8:40 or 9pm ... Seriously the next thing I knew It was about 9:50 and a man was saying we close in 10 minutes ... I don't even know what happened ... I was only going to run 2 to 3 laps around the track and that turned into 12+ ... anyway ... while I was running I was thinking about my life and where it has lead me ... the track of life ... life has put some pretty crazy obstacles in my life that at times I thought impossible to get past but ... even threw the rough terrain and the steep mountains I am where I am today! I am who I am today and I still have hope and faith that all will eventually work out for me! ... I'm not going to lie though a lot of times my future looks grim ... hopeless and all together sad ... so I have decided to live for me .. live day to day ... I have started to become more blunt and truthful with things and I have been hoping that maybe I will start doing more with my life and what I have to offer ... I feel I have a lot to offer and its up to others to take it or leave it! I know that the lord will help me! I just need to "choose the right" more often! ... anyway ... a lot is on my mind and I am hoping I can sort it all out ... thanks for reading ...

life and its many steps

2010-01-09T10:37:00.003-07:00

I have been kind of sick lately! ... and the funny thing is that the only people who really get sick is me and my roommate Jenny! ... haha ... kinda sad but true so we have been in and out of being well ... her more so then me! Poor girl! ... anyway life other then that has been good! a little crazy but overall good! :) I went home for Christmas! I had a flight for Christmas Eve and then I drove back to Provo with my uncle the Sunday after New years! :) Life and my trip has been good ... overall if you dont dwell to much on somethings! :) anyway off to work! :)

I feel Hope! ... there is hope in ALL things!

2009-12-13T01:23:00.003-07:00

Well tonight was a rough one! I have not been getting the hours I need at work ... well I guess what I should say is I'm not a millionaire yet so I am not satisfied! ;) haha no I'm totally kidding! :) haha but honestly I have not been getting enough money ... so that has been getting me down! ... Man! Tonight I have hit a trial that is too close! Way to close to my heart!! I don't know why I decided to stay out here sometimes!! ... its almost harder to deal with reality!! ... everyday trials! ... a couple hours ago I felt down and hopeless! ... Until I realized that the feeling of despair and regret started turning into love and hope! ... I know that I choose this! I know that I wanted to come to this earth to learn all that I could! I have been through a lot so far and I still have so much more to go through! SO I was thinking of all of the blessings in my life! All of the love that my life has been filled with and all of the knowledge that I really have!!

Life may seem hard and unfair a lot of the time! Trust me I know! If you have read any of my past posts I'm not really one to say its not ... but I know that even though there are so many things that are SO unbelievably hard and so many things that just seem unreachable that there IS hope! there is SO much hope!!! The lord did not send us here to fail he did not send us here so we could not reach better things! There is better out there! we are all meant to be happy! so why try not to be! Life is good! I love my roommates! I love my friends! and I love the Beauty of this earth!!! I just LOVE IT!!! Life is good even when its not so good! Even through all the wishing and hoping for something better!! Better is right in front of our faces we just have to notice! :) I love you all! :) Night! :)

Prancing through life!

2009-12-10T23:42:00.007-07:00

And I don't mean that as a pun from the hit musical Wicked! :) ... haha Ok ... so I think I'm funny when I'm really not ... but that's ok! Anyway! I have not updated this thing in a long long time and SO much has happened! ... Where to start, where to start!! ... Hmmmm .... Well first I think I will say how I think that my relationship with my Heavenly Father is an Awesome one!! I say this because well ... I have had a lot of choices to make this past month! And I have officially decided that I am SO stinking indecisive! :( .... haha but none the less I have finally made a choice! I have been deciding between a mission and staying here and going to school! I have hit the age of decision! (Yay ...) I really would like to go on a mission for the first time in my life but I feel it necessary for me to stay out here in Utah right now! For what reasons I do not know because I feel it is SO much harder to be out here! ... I mean yes I want to stay out here for my friends and for the great "Opportunities" (like dating as my dad says ...) but I feel I am sinking, sinking emotionally and sinking physically ... I have no idea how to pay for most of what I do ... example School! I have signed up for UVU and I should be starting Jan. 6th? ... but I have no idea how I'm going to do that if I have no money! ... AND to top it all off my car is no longer in working order SO I have no money and no transportation! .... YAY! ... sigh! :) I'm sinking ... And! Well now that I have decided to stay here so many more decisions have come my way! ... MAN! I need a therapist!! I just know that Heavenly Father just loves me so much because if he didn't life would be easy! :) haha ... I have been studying my scriptures a lot and one scripture that just warms my soul so much that I just recently came upon is in Solomon's Song 2:14 (in the Bible) anyway if you look it up it says:

"O my dove, that art in the clefts of the rock, in the secret places of the stairs, let me see thy countenance, let me hear thy voice; for sweet is thy voice, and thy countenance is comely."

I just love this verse because I just feel that there are so many times where we hide in our fears and hide in all the "problems/trials" in our lives that we don't take the time to, let our voices be heard! ... even in a small way! I let myself do it all the time! I always hide behind my imperfections, my past, my weaknesses and I feel that I loose out on a lot because of it! ... I mean I just feel that because of my stupid ways, I am always in a rut! and I am sure dang tired of ruts! ... I always say I'm going to change it but I really think that I just need to accept things better!!

Feelings are such a strange thing! ... One Second you can feel one way and then the next it can totally change ... I have been having a hard time figuring people out lately! ... I feel I am less trusting then normal and that makes me sad ... I feel that I have been more on edge and well I don't want that .... I guess there is always a lot on my mind! ... I just want someone to be there for me sometimes ... And well I want to be there for them as well! I just wish that I could be smarter in my decisions and well make the right best choices ... I don't know ... I think its getting late and I am making no sense! but what I do know is that I am happy to be alive and that most of the time I am happy with where I am now! but one thing I know for sure is that I am not being lead astray! I know the lord loves me and no matter how many trials come I am learning from everyone! I may not get what I want at the time but I do know that it will all work out for me in the end! I love you all and Im sorry this is such a strange update! :) I hope you enjoyed all the crazy! :) Love ya all! :) ♥ Night

Pondering ...

2009-09-21T00:27:00.006-06:00

Life always brings many steps to take next ... I think that actually making the right 'next' step is the hardest part about it all though ... you may know how to put one foot in front of the other but its finding out what you will step on next that makes it all the more complicated! ...
Should I move this way or that way? ... that is the question! ......... Life is wonderful right now for me but that doesn't mean that I no longer have choices to make ... there is always a decision to be made! ... I was able to give a talk in church a while back ...(Well Sunday the 13th)... and normally that is one of the scariest things to anyone ... but I just felt the spirit so strong I wanted to shout from mountain tops of how true the gospel is, and how much it means to me!!! It has taken me 20+ years to finally stand on my own two feet! The lord is so much of my life! He knows exactly what I need in order to get things threw my thick HEAD!!! Even now I know I still have so much more to learn!
Lately I have been trying to see the lords hand in my life and I really truly believe that he has blessed me so much in just the small things going on in my life! I feel very content with who I am as a person, I feel that getting this job at Brick Oven has blessed me tremendously! I feel I have made so many great friends from there while I am making money! :) Yay!!! Which is such a large blessing in itself! I am so blessed to be living out here in Provo! Meeting all that I have met and learning all that I have learned and have still yet to learn! :) The lord has blessed me and will continue to bless me! :) I have such a testimony in these things and in the things of this church I know the lord is there for us every step of the way and he wants to see us succeed in this life and the life to come! I know the lord has much in store for me! I only hope to be ready for all he needs me to do! I love you all and I will talk to you all soon! ♥
-Naomi

Well I guess its updating time!!!!! :)

2009-08-20T01:11:00.002-06:00

I am enjoying life to its fullest right now ... I have been working a lot, hanging out with friends, going on dates and OF COURSE sleeping! :) hehe! :) I am now training to become a server and should be a new server in about a week .. so I hope you all can keep me in your prayers! Ill need them!!! :) other then that I have been just enjoying life as it comes .. there is only so much one can do ... I have been on many dates lately ... and they have been so much fun! I have really enjoyed them but some of these boys out here are just so ready for a major relationship ... and well needless to say I am not! I am really enjoying the freedom and fun that comes out of being single! :) in fact I feel so bad that I have been only feeling the single thing sometimes because I have to let these poor guys know that I just want to date around for now ... some take it better then others ... but other then that things are wonderful! I am really enjoying life right now! :) so thats my update right now! :) I hope all is well with you guys! :) love you all! :)
-Naomi

I GOT A JOB!!!!

2009-08-12T16:52:00.002-06:00

YAY! I will officially be staying in Provo!!! Woo-Hoo! I'm so excited but I will be working a lot now! ... so we will see how that goes! ... I am going to be a waitress at an Awesome restaurant! :) I am just so happy that I'm not guessing anymore! Things do end up working out for the better! I cant say that I'm not nervous for this position but I am excited to take it on and see how well I do!! I am Also Way excited because I will be moving upstairs in a couple days and my very good friend Jenny is going to be my roommate! Yay! We have been trying to get together as roommates for a while now and now its finally happening! Yay! Anyway thats pretty much all that is new right now! till next time! thanks everyone for your prayers and thought on my behalf! :) ♥

-Naomi

JOB SEARCHING!! ...

2009-07-28T19:26:00.004-06:00

My goodness searching for a Job is like pulling teeth! ... And I would know! I worked for a dentist! ;) haha ... but Oh my goodness it is redunkulous!!!! YES that's right I said "redunkulous" ... (pronounced RE-DUN-Q-LESS);) ... no but seriously I have been searching since I got back from California and still nothing ... I don't understand it ... because if I don't get a job then I will be forced to move back home .. due to the fact that I have NO MOOLAH ... AKA ... MONEY!!!!! :( Hmmm ... so what do I do ... I mean I have not felt like it will come down to that so I have decided that I would make arrangements as if I did have a job ... I set aside an apartment and I am letting people know that I am staying here .. which I hope to stay true too ... it should be everyday I apply for something knew so ... I guess we will just have to see right? I know that either way life will be good for me and it will go the way it needs to so ... lets just see where I go next! right? :) ... anyway but till then searching for a job stinks .. but life is good! a lot better now that the 24th has passed!!! Yay!!! :) anyway I love you all! :) ♥
-Naomi

"The Wedding Date."

2009-07-25T01:44:00.003-06:00

Most girls fantasize about there wedding date and how wonderful it will be ... it rained today in Utah ... I don't know about California but it rained today ... so I don't know about you or how much my readers may know but today was my "Wedding Date" the day that I had put aside to be sealed to someone for time and all eternity ... WOW! ... the thought of it ... the fact that I, today was supposed to have been stepping into a new chapter of my life that led me away from single-dum ... it totally boggles my mind ... I was going to marry someone ... I was so ready to give my life to a man that, it turns out was not ready to give me his ... WOW! ... Today was hard ... these past 1 and a half to 2 months I have been doing all I can to forget ... well maybe not forget but put out of my mind the fact that I was in love with someone and that one day decided he just wasn't all that in love with me ... and I have been doing OK with it until today ... today was hard ... it was unacceptably hard ... :'( IT SHOULDN'T be like this I have talked with him, I have talked with others! I have been preparing myself for when this day would come! I even hung out with my brothers today but still IT DIDN'T WORK!!!! :( Why it didn't work I don't know but I know that having these feelings is something that shows even more weakness on my part and I'm tired of it! I am a strong girl and I know that the lord sent me through this because he loves me and he knows whats best! I need to just trust him! There are so many times where I wonder what was and is wrong with me and I just know that, that wont go away easily ... I know what people say and I know what they will say but please I just, I just need to finish climbing this mountain that I started ... I know that I had a good thing it just stinks when that good thing gets lost ... and sometimes its lost for reasons that still may not make any sense to me! :( but that is life ... life is full of disappointment and so we all know to keep our heads as high as we can until one day we just cant so we start over again weather we want to or not ... well anyway ... today was hard ... it just was hard and I probably should of left it at that but I didn't so thanks for reading.

-naomi

♥ Life is Beautiful! ♥

2009-07-18T19:53:00.002-06:00

Well life has still been pretty hard but it has been getting a lot better I have been on 2 dates recently and I have to say that the first one was VERY hard to be on ... not because he wasn't a good guy or what not but because it was my first date since everything! I have been feeling very honored lately because I have been a dates with great guys and I look forward to going on more as I continue ... in fact I have been hanging out with a great group of people that are just WONDERFUL and for the very first time I did not think of my past ... I only thought of how much fun I was having with these exceptional people! :) I mean sure I have my days and moments where I think Man! Life is hard right now but I really think that the lord has his arms around me a lot lately because he knows just when I need a smile, a hug, a phone call or even someone to hang out with! I am just so blessed for being around such wonderful people! ♥ ... Anyway I really want to apologize for being so down the past couple of weeks! It was unacceptable! I mean sure this is hard and I lost the one I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with but I know better then to let myself get into a slump! I love you all and I love the trials that have been given me by the lord because I know he just wants me to become a better me! And I totally am! I am learning so much more about myself and on top of that I am becoming way more confident! Not in a cocky way but in a good way that makes it so I know who I am and know that I am worth something! ... anyway life is Beautiful! I love you all for hanging in there with me! thank you so much! I love you all! ♥

-Naomi

As the days seem to get a little bit easier ... ???

2009-07-10T10:52:00.005-06:00

(*Sorry this blog has a little more of a sad gloom to it so please if you do not want your happy mood crushed don't read this blog today! and please keep in mind that this blog is written simply to clear my head of thoughts and feelings I am not looking for any sympathy here I am just simply trying to get stuff off my chest I know that my life is good and maybe even better then others but right now this is what I feel ... I do not wish to offend anyone nor do I wish to make anyone feel sorry for me ... so please just keep that in mind if you are going to read! thank you for understanding and please don't read this if you are in a happy mood.*)

So I went home for a good two and a half weeks and I have to say that it was very well needed! I missed everyone out here but it was so nice to get away from the swirling thoughts in my head that never seemed to slow while out here ... my little life has been through a BIG change ... and I know you all already know but its time for me to finally come out and say the words I have been trying to fully avoid to make it all still seem like one big nightmare instead of the real truth ... and here it is ... I have been dumped ... I am no longer getting married ... I am SINGLE again ... I thought I was reaching my fairytale ... I was so close to that one big day that most girls dream about when they are old enough to understand that one day there prince will come ... I was there my prince had come ... or so I thought ... and then one day *SMASH* it is pulled from me at an insainley fast pace! So fast indeed that I still am in shock as to whats happened ... I went home and the first thing that my mom said to me as she looked at me, seeing the pain in her eyes as she wanted to understand what I was going through, she said ... "Naomi, you have lost so much weight!" words that to some may seem silly but to me it was everything my mom could see the change that I had gone through and those words hit me like a ton of bricks, with so much meaning, and then she embraced me with all the love a sweet mother could have for a child in need! ... I realize then that I was in so much denial ... so much pain that my instinct was simply to just push it away and pretend as if nothing had happened or that something did happen but that I was "fine" ...
I had the chance that week to be a leader at our stakes girls camp! It was such a privilege for me to be able to learn from these wonderful girls to feel the love that they have! and then I was able to spend time with more family in Oregon! My trip was like I said well needed to fill a little of the large hole that now lives where my heart lived ... life for me has taken an unexpected and yet very expected turn ... maybe for the better but only time will tell ...
Now that I am back in Provo I am realizing how hard it was to be close to the situation ... it is EXTREMELY strange being asked to hang out with other guys I still feel I am being disloyal to him ... and on top of that I feel that I am not in my element to be around others ... this just isn't me ... its like I don't know what to do anymore ... my body is running on auto pilot and I cant turn it off ... at least not now ... the pain is still too close ... I saw him when I got back just from a distance and that is when reality struck again ... I realized then that I still had a huge gash in my side and it hurt I could not stand to see him again not that way ... I have lost all control as to what my outcome may be now ... so I guess all I can do now is work as hard as I can to get out of auto pilot and resume control of what I have lost and have yet to find again ... the pain will always be there but one day it will become something that is just there something in the background something that one day will be made whole again ... but that someday wont be for a while until then I will do what I can to fill the emptiness ... I will continue with a smile, I will be the only one who will actually know the truth behind the blank stares and subtle grins ... life will get better I know it! Until then I do love you all and thank you all for your love and support through one of my own trials! I know I'm not the only out here hurting and for that I am sorry! I love you all! ♥ till next time.

-Naomi

I dont know what to title this except - Try to think on the bright side.

2009-06-12T09:30:00.004-06:00

Well just yesterday I went to a Kelly Clarkson concert with my brother and his girlfriend (Hilary)! It was so fun but it rained the whole time so Hilary and I were soaking wet and freezing! It was worth it though Kelly sang a lot of songs that seem to fit with my life right now but it was good to know that I could go out on my own and have some fun!! :) Anyway other then that I was able to hang out with Emily Hollingshead after work and before the concert! I just love her so much! I am so glad to have made such a wonderful friend like her! She helps me out in so many way! Especially now in my time of need! I am so blessed! ...

Ok side note away from what I have done Ill let you know what I have been thinking, so as some of you might already know my life has coming to a screeching stop and it seems right now that life will never be good again and I have been thinking my life sucks and my life is so hard and Im not saying that it isnt right now but I am saying that I think the lord let me see life a little differently the other day as I was driving my eyes were opened to the fact that my life is not the only one with problems I was listening to the radio and The Climb by Miley Cyrus ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NG2zyeVRcbs ) came on as I looked around I noticed a man holding a woman as she cried and then another couple talking and laughing and then I noticed a man just sitting looking like he was contemplating life and so on I just saw so many people and I noticed that others have problems too! And I always knew that but I never actually think about others too much when things are going on in my life I mean yes right now I am having a really hard time but that doesn't mean that I need to be selfish ... I don't know I was just thinking about that ... anyway listen to it or look it up on YouTube ... :) I know that life is hard right now for a lot of people and I am going to be sad about whats going on with me right now because I know that I can at least do that but I know that I will get through it eventually I just hope that it is with that certain someone ... anyway I should stop writing now ... this is my semi happy post I cant really guarantee the rest but this is what I am trying to do right now and I cant say that It will be easy because its not but I will try .. anyway till next time! laters!

IM GETTING MARRIED!! :)

2009-03-23T14:21:00.006-06:00

WHO would of guessed right?? :) I know! ;) I'M ENGAGED!! :) and I know all of you have been wanting to know how Andrew proposed! :) I'm so sorry that it has taken so long for me to actually get it written down so you all could read it!! :) So I guess I should start from the beginning! :) So here we go!! :)
Well it was a Saturday and I had to give a friend a ride to the Salt Lake airport! :) When I got back home I noticed sitting on my bed was an envelope addressed to me! So I opened it and in there was first a two page letter that was hand written by Andrew! In this letter Andrew told me how much he loves me and he explained why and how he fell in love with me! :) Mainly he wrote many sweet things to me! :) and then there was another computer written letter that said that we were going to be going on a formal date and he asked me to meet him on campus behind the Hinkley building at our "spot" under the gazebo at 4:30 sharp!! :) And it was about 3:00 so I didn't have much time ... so I decided it was about time to get ready! :) my roommate did my hair and I put on my green prom dress and headed out I got there at about 4:32 and no one was there except for some other couple that seemed to be taking pictures ... (like engagement pictures) ... I was unsure of what I should be doing! So I walked around and look for another letter possibly! It was pretty windy so I thought that maybe he had another letter or something but I didn't find one ... the next thing that happened as I started thinking oh well he is really late Ill wait a couple more minutes and then Ill go see whats going on... ? :) Right then a girl and a guy came riding up on a scooter and the guy was in a suit and my first thought was great another couple is going to want this spot ... but then the guy came running up to me and asked if I was Naomi and of course I was like "yeeeess" ... not sure of what to think and he said well I have a message for you! He talker to me for a while and his girlfriend came up to me and they were stalling me! (but I didn't know that at the time) so I was just so ready to know what the message was but they just kept asking me questions about how Andrew and I met what I was doing in Utah and so on! :) Anyway finally he said well I do have a letter for you and finally he gave it to me! :) This second letter had a poem that he wrote about our relationship and another letter that let me know where the next destination was and that was where we had our first date, at the dollar theater ... So off I went! :) When I got there I saw another guy in a suit and I went straight to him! He is one of our friends and he also had a letter for me inside this letter was a paper people chain and another note that let me know to meet him at his grandparents house! When I got there Andrew was there to meet me! He had a BEAUTIFUL dinner set up for me with candles and a dozen roses! :) And of course my favorite dinner SPAGHETTI and a beautiful salad!!!! :) (Andrew is a great cook!) haha! I know weird but so true, thanks so much to his mom!! :) but anyway so he pulled my chair out so I could sit down and we ate! :) After we ate we started to clean up and that was the most romantic part of the night! We listened to a playlist he put together of songs that reminded him of me! :D We danced in the kitchen and cleaned up! After we finished cleaning his grandparents came home and we talked with them for a little while before we headed off to the rock park and we walked around for a little while and he brought me to the top of a hill and we looked out over Provo and were hugging and were just loving being near each other when he whispered in my ear and said I actually have one more surprise for you! :) and that's when he pulled back and went down on one knee and I just went crazy I couldn't stop laughing and I tried pulling him back up because I just couldn't believe it! I thought he didn't have the ring yet and I just was so surprised that my suspicions were right about him proposing that night! I just couldn't believe it!! Anyway he said "Will you Marry me?" and I just didn't hear him at first so when I stopped laughing I looked at him and he looked at me and I was just like are you going to ask and he just smiled and said Will you marry me again and I said YES!!!! And he stood up and we hugged and kissed and then I finally was like Where is the ring? :) let me see it! :) and he pulled it out and he slipped it on my finger! :) Oh It was such a fun night!! :) after all of our fun and excitement we headed off to our stake dance to show off the ring and to tell others that we were officially engaged!! :) :) Anyway that is what happened that night! :) I love Andrew SO So so very much I consider myself lucky to be with him!! :) I am so very happy about the way my life is headed!! :) I have been so blessed!!! I am so excited to start my new life with Andrew! :) Thanks so much to everyone who has been so supportive! :) I hope you enjoyed our little story! :) Sorry again it took so long to finally get it written down! :)

I dont want to be at work ...

2009-02-05T09:46:00.005-07:00

Well I'm at work right now but this morning I just had no desire to get out of the door! Andrew comes over every morning at 7:30 so we can study! :D right now we are in 2nd Nephi chapter 5 ... we started reading every morning together because we both really wanted to be able to see each other more and because we wanted to make it a habit in our relationship to read the scriptures as much as possible! ... Anyway so this morning we were running a little later because we both slept through our alarms ... haha (my alarm is actually Andrew calling me and saying "GOOD MORNING Ill be over in five mins" so then I get up...) haha ... but anyway this morning it was more like 7:45 when he called and I got up! :) anyway he must really like me because I was so tired this morning and had no make up on at all!! But he just came in gave me a great big hug and told me I was Beautiful!! :) hehe! :) anyway then we read our two chapters! I didn't want to go to work!!! :( ... Lizzie has been better but still temperamental ... but I think the main thing is I just wanted to spend the day with Andrew! Its really a lot more fun! ;) haha ... anyway so but work isn't too bad Lizzie is watching wonder pets and well I'm here ... haha ... so its not too bad ... yet ... ;) ... Anyway so that's whats mainly going on so far today! ... I don't really feel as productive as I did yesterday! but yesterday I went into work at like 1 and got out at 3:30 so that could of helped! :) .... haha ... I got up at 7:30 with Andrew as normal and when he left at 9 I slept on the couch till 11, took a shower, got ready, went to work, got off work, filled up my car with gas, went home and started making dinner for Andrew and I, went on campus found Andrew in the Wilk and fed him Chicken, rice, baked potato and Pudding and then I let him get back to studying so I walked with him to the library, I walked home and FINALLY got to talk on the phone with my brother Jesse! :) and when I got home I started making mint brownies(MMmmmmmmmm!) Found a copy of 'That Thing You Do'!!!!! picked Andrew up from school, watched the movie ate Brownies!! and then said goodnight to Andrew at 11:15 (Meaning I kicked him out of my apartment!) ;) haha ... Yesterday was a good day!! :) ... so lets see if i can do the same with today!? :) haha maybe ... maybe not? :) haha anyway! I'm going to get off now but I hope you all enjoyed my random babble and synopsis on my days! ;) love you all! :) <3

Lots and Lots of WONDERFUL Change! :) <3

2009-02-03T13:58:00.005-07:00

So I'm so sorry I have been abandoning my blog lately I'm sure that you all have gotten out of the habit of checking to see if I wrote anything new! haha ... WELL! today is your lucky day! I'm writing again! :) mainly because I have to catch you all up on whats been going on with me! :)
FIRST OFF: I am dating a WONDERFUL Guy! His Name is Andrew Hollingshead!! and for those who were at Grandmas for New Years, this is the guy that I was talking on the phone with almost constantly!!! :) Andrew has stolen my heart! He is so wonderful to me!! ... Just to give you all a little bit of background about what has been going on Andrew and I started dating right before Christmas break ... (great timing right? :)) so about 8 weeks ago!!! Anyway we have been up and down in our relationship (meaning I turned him down when he first asked me to be his girlfriend and then he came up with the conclusion to just be friends ... but that didn't work too well ... obviously!) Anyway so now things have been going REAlLY well he makes every day so much better! I could probably go on and on about him but I don't want to bore anyone or Gross anyone out so I wont but if any of you have any questions as to more info just ask! :) don't be afraid! :) I love to talk about him! :) anyway I actually have to run but the main reason for this blog is I'm not single anymore!!! :) I have a Fantastic man by my side now!! I have already met most of his family and I absolutely love them all! They are so Sweet! His mom is a GREAT cook and just a very sweet woman who always thinks of others! :) and the rest of everyone that I met (I'm not going to brag too much about them all) but they are all so Wonderful! I met his cousins, grandparents, sister, brother, sister in law and their two adorable kids!! anyway I am so grateful to all of them! they have all been so sweet to me! :) They REALLY make me miss my family but at the same time they make me feel like I am family so I really enjoy them all so very much!! :) But anyway I really have to go! I will write more soon! I promise! and I'm sorry this blog may seem more like a jumbled mess of thought but I am kind of distracted ... Lizzie decided to draw in the comp room so ... anyway its been a fun day! :) till next time all! :) laters! :)

With open eyes ... :)

2008-12-04T09:36:00.004-07:00

Well things have been really great for me! :) I am now a nanny for a very cute little girl! :) I have been loving getting up early and going to "work" we spend time playing inside after breakfast and then after a while we head outside for a walk to the park! I have gained so much appreciation for Utah, the mountains and the changing weather ... It is just so beautiful and fresh outside! Who couldn't like it ... I mean of course I am still kind of scared of the snow but until it comes I am loving being able to go on walks and such with Lizzie. She has been so cute on our walks and very observant of her surroundings ... the other day we went for a walk and it was pretty windy so she decided she would chase the leaves as they flew by! Running up and down the lawn yelling "leaves, leaves come back!" and then finally when i call her name to come back because she has gone too far she decides to give up and move to the next lucky leaf to fly by! :) ... We took home a bouquet of leaves that day from our walk! :) ... anyway that is just one experience she is just overall a joy to be with! I am learning from her as she is learning from me! ... but anyway other then my nanny job I have just been enjoying all the beautiful and fun things that Provo has to offer me! :) I have made a lot of friends lately and well I just am enjoying the company of everyone I come in contact with! ... I have noticed that it has been hard for me to create conversation with people I'm not yet comfortable with but for the most part I am trying to get over being too shy around people! haha but you know there is only so much one person can do ... :) ... Ok ok ... so i should probably get back to hanging out with Lizzie ... She just wanted to play by herself for a while so I decided I would write a little something ... so but I hope you all enjoyed this little update on me :) till next time :)

ps ... sorry that this entry may not make sense! I hope that its not too confusing ... I have a lot on my mind but its always hard to get it out in writing! :) so ... :) thanks for even getting this far! :)

Staying up late ... and things I miss back home ... like HUGS! :)

2008-11-23T04:11:00.011-07:00

Have you ever thought about why life brings you the things it brings you?? uncertainty, happiness, love, hate, sadness, all the many many trials and so on .... I mean life is full of little surprises ... sometimes it makes me think that someone has too much confidence in me to think I can handle most of the trials that come my way and that I can actually/possibly learn something from all of it! :) ... haha ... my goodness .... now I know that in general I am just a "young" girl who randomly decided to move far away from home to try and become more "independent" and learn so much more about life ... find out more of who I am and so on ... But a good friend of mine once said "you cant run away from your problems ... they are going to be there wherever you go, they are just in a new area with new people" ... not that I am saying I was running from my problems ... but it is so true! trials will follow you wherever you go! no matter what you do or even who you meet there is always room for growth, like I have always most recently said "You will have a trial today! Go into it with a smile and learn something new!"

I am so glad that we are going into the holiday seasons! Thanksgiving, Christmas and so on!! :) I get to see my family! YEAH!! :) I am so very grateful for all of them! :) They have been my solid grown for all the years of my life, they have taught me who I am and helped me to learn of who I want to become! I am just SO grateful for all that they have giving me! ... anyway ... grateful grateful grateful! I just love a lot of things about my family, they literally are the BEST!! :) <3

Anyway ... so what is going on with me right now ... other then all the love .... ;) haha ... well I have made new friends around the Villa! and they are not only boys but they are a mixed variety of boys and girls! :) WOo-HOo! ... I know something kinda new for me ... :) but I'm getting back into my old groove of being social! ... it took a little while but I am finally getting to the point of feeling comfortable again and well this is now feeling like my home away from home! :) ... one thing that I generally do miss a lot though is I miss ... well ... I miss ... Hugs! ... it seems like out here hugs are like non existent unless you are good friends, or if a boy likes you, its really only if you like the person like in more then a possible friends way ... and well I don't know about you but my family hugs Everyone! We are just one hugging family ... so like living out here I think that High fives, hand shakes and just all that weird awkward stuff, well I just think it is just so impersonal ... and just kinda lame ... but that's just my look on it all, I guess sometimes I can be to friendly ... but anyway but other then all of that I really like living in Provo! I'm running out of food and I am low on money but not for long (hopefully) because I start my Nanny Job on the 1st of December!! :) and the little girl I will be Nannying for is SO ADORABLE!!!!! I am really excited! :) but anyway other then all of that things have been great I'm just excited to go home again!! :) It will be a new adventure and I am always up for new things! :) ... Anyway I'm going to stop now so that I can go to bed but I hope you all enjoyed a little more insight into my life! :) till next time! :)

~Naomi

P.S. this is kinda the mood I am in! :) ... I cant wait to see my family! ;) <3 <3 <3

<3 <3 <3 SMILE ITS WORTH EVERY MINUTE!!!!! <3 <3 <3

The weather is changing ... and stuff! ... :)

2008-11-04T12:47:00.002-07:00

Well it is getting a lot colder! ... it is supposed to snow tomorrow ... but as for right now it is just simply raining ... I like the rain mostly but lately it has just been gloomy and ........ blah! Ha Ha, anyway plus I have been on the verge of being sick so that hasn't been too much fun! :( It has been hard to breath lately and I have been trying to get to bed earlier but it just hasn't been working out for me ... but as is life! Right? :) .... Speaking of life ... its actually going really well so far! I was up and down with my feelings for a little while because of a little crush that I had but then I realized that it was becoming too much of a game between the two of us and then it just got annoying for me ... ha ha ... I like the game, don't get me wrong but when that "game" gets to be the only thing you two are doing and you end up leaving him more confused then you ALREADY were, then that's when you need to realize what you gained and didn't gain from it all and MOVE ON! There is no point in getting your panties all in a twist for someone who really could care less (in a matter of speaking!) ... :) HE HE! ... ANYWAY ... so but ever since I came up with my bright idea to just not care anymore life has been great! I am making great friends, I love my roommates more then anything and well I'm not having to deal with my own disgusting DRAMA! ... anyway so but as far as everything else goes, I'm sorry I haven't put up any pictures of my trip to California! there are just SO many! it really is ridiculous! I really need to stop taking SO many pictures! ... ha ha ... but seriously I will try to get a couple up at least on my facebook so if you have a facebook, you should be seeing those here soon ... but those who don't ... well ... I'm sorry ... :( ... :) but I'm pretty sure all my friends have one so I'm OK there! :) ... anyway I'm going to get off now but enjoy! and thanks for reading! :)

I have been Tagged! ... 7 things about me! If you even wanted to know! ;)

2008-10-14T15:13:00.006-06:00

Well Apparently there is this tag thing going around and from what I understand from it all is that if you are tagged you need to put up 7 random or just 7 things about yourself so that others can get to know you better! ... why 7 I don't know and whether or not I can come up with 7 random or just 7 things ... we will see ... haha ok so lets get started! :)

7 random or just 7 things about me whether you wanted to know or not ...

1. I guess the first thing about me would be that I can be very paranoid at times, I sometimes have an over active imagination and most of the time it doesn't work out for the best of me...! For example I always try and take precaution in the movies I watch, especially if they are scary movies! Because my mind can take just one simple scene from that movie and make it reality when I am in a room by myself or am just walking by myself or just anything by myself!! When I know full well that nothing is going to happen and that it was "just a movie" I still get really freaked out!! ... anyway ... :)

2. Some people say I'm really shy at first but once I get comfortable with people and my surroundings I can be really talkative and out there! I can even at times (meaning often) be very sarcastic! ... not sure if that's a good one or not ...?

3. I try to be as blunt as I possibly can and sometimes it doesn't work out for the best!! ... I often try and speak my mind a lot when it comes to Boys, subjects that really matter to me and well just many things that get me going and well a lot of times/most of the time it back fires! For example, there was this one time I told this boy I liked him and he turned around and said I like you too! :) ..... SYKE!! ... **Ouch!** but that was like in 7th grade so ... I guess the thing about that experience is that instead of coming away and saying I'm never going to tell my feelings ever again, although it really sucked, I came away saying well its better to know then to not know so ... I guess you can say that now I try to be bold but not too pushy because most of the time when I'm bold people think that I want results now!! When really I'm just trying to find out what kind of territory I'm going to walk into ... but the truth is I'm really a chill person and I like to take things slow, I just don't like being in the dark! :) ... haha (Yeah I'm weird ...)

4. I LOVE music! But I'm not very talented in playing anything, I can play VERY little of the Piano and I played the Violin for a good 6 years of my life but was never really good at it because I was too lazy to practice BUT I do love to sing so I took a couple classes and was in a couple choirs ... BUT anyway the weird thing is that even though I LOVE music I don't know much about it, especially when it comes to artists/bands, song titles, and so on! I'm really bad when people ask me about music because I mostly just listen to it and like it! I love to hear new things and I am very willing to learn as much as I can if I can about different bands and such but if you ask me I try to stay away from that subject, not because I don't like it but because I don't know much about it, BUT if you played it to me I most likely will know it! A lot of people call it my handicap ... :) ... ?

5. I am a big pushover! Its just really hard for me to not do stuff for people! I like being helpful and I end up saying yes a lot or just doing a lot of stuff for people! ... and well sometimes its not the best because I don't even notice when people are taking advantage until someone tells me like the 100th time because I wont believe them the first 99 times ;)

6. I like to tell detailed stories about things that happen with me, around me or just things that happen to me! When someone asks me a question about my day most of the time if it was good and exciting I will let you know almost every detail, if I think you like me enough to want to hear it or if I just think you are a good enough friend to be kind and make me happy by listening to it! :) I'm not the kind of person that you want to ask about a movie if you don't want to know what happens because I find it really hard to come up with summaries that don't give away the endings so just be careful in what you ask me! I may just talk you ear off but don't worry I sometimes add animation and hand gestures to it all! :) ...

7. AND last but not least, I don't have favorites! ... When people ask me what my favorite color is, what my favorite movie is, what my favorite song is, what my favorite season is and so many more favorites, I find it REALLY hard to answer them back! I used to just tell people that I don't really have any favorites but then they thought that was dumb and weird so I just came up with answers that are true but at the same time I like SO many more things that I really wouldn't be able to decide because it all depends on the day and what was going on at th time! :) So call me indecisive! ...

Anyway so those are my 7 things! :) and Im going to tag .... Lizzy and Palmyra!! ;) Haha yeah thats right I tagged Two people!! :) Good luck! :) love ya both! ;)

... WOW! What a good night! ...

2008-10-07T00:58:00.005-06:00

I think I may just be on an good note in life ... lets see if I can get it all into words that are understandable ... Ok ... ok, we all know that's not going to happened but Ill explain my day none the less! ... Ok so my sister is in town right now and it was her birthday on the 6th! :) (Happy Birthday to you! Happy Birthday to you!!) anyway I got up around 9:30, took a shower and got ready to go to lunch with her and my brother at 11am :) so we went to this really good Argentine Restaurant and got some great deals because my little brother is good at finding deals! anyway so MMMMmmmmmm! then we went to my brothers apartment and got the grand tour! He headed to school and my sis and I headed to go shopping! and filling out applications! :) FUN FUN ... *rolls eyes* anyway so I didn't get anything because well we all know I'm not getting any money so I'm trying not to spend! ... Anyway so I came back home because I had planned dinner with 2 wonderful girls and we went to the wonderful IHOP! :) Hehe! :) love it! ;) Then we went to FHE Jenny and I bailed early and hung at her brothers apartment till I had to go and help put things on doors and then I listened to "the band" play some songs and well I helped out with a couple things ...

ANYWAY this main blog is not really to be a journal of my probably boring to you day! I wanted to talk about something else! like just the simple fact of Being happy just to get a break from it all! or even just the small fact of being able to talk to someone in ways you probably wouldn't otherwise ... Oh my goodness this day has been a great day filled with Smiles and just ... more smiles! I have come to so many realizations that it has blown me out of my own little world! I mean my cousin just got called on his mission to South Korea!! and my other friend left to South Africa and another is leaving to GUAM! and SO many others! The work is progressing and all I can sometimes think about is "if some guy might be thinking about me and if so is he going to do anything about it? or will I?" ... man ... I am having a very blunt night tonight ... I really like it! I think that if more people were open about there feelings (in a good way) things would be so much easier ... sigh I don't know I have been reading a lot of different views on dating lately and just about a girls perspective and a guys perspective and I really think that we are all no different except that girls are generally the ones that wait for a guy to make up his mind on what he wants, if he wants and how fast/slow he wants ... but then again in some extent guys do the same! I look up to those guys that put themselves out on the line to ask a girl out and then try to figure things out from there! like how fast and so on once he waits for her to get over all her girlie stuff and figure out if she wants to take a journey with him! I think that it is all equally the same for both girls and guys ... but as a general rule girls and guys just don't get each other and they never really will, that is why communication is wonderful!! If you get a chance to communicate the way things should be! ... you know, I have ALWAYS hated "the talk" or as its called out here "DTR" (Define the Relationship) I hate it I think sometimes it makes it worse or it just doesn't help at all ... I believe actions speak louder then words but that words with actions are beyond this world! I mean like in a relationship its nice when it starts! You are all flirty and cuddly and so on right but that's just the first step of letting them know you are interested! now you just have to figure out How interested! ... is it just going to be that or will it maybe go on for more? who knows? so:

1. you can talk about it ASAP and see what each others views are on this and break it or make it ...
2. you can just wait till you have seen each other for a while with doing this and then possibly talk about it and decide to continue or not ...
OR...
3. you can do this for a while and talk about it decide to continue and then do nothing about it for a while and leave one or the other wondering what the heck just happened and IF its going to continue liked previously talked about ...

.... haha there was a blog that my friend (Britton) wrote that is so good at explaining things its about hunting and fishing! and how it is very similar to girls and guys in the dating world! I cant butcher his words so you will have to read it yourself but anyway its a really good analogy! but well its really getting late and I need to sleep but those are the many sloppy things flowing through my head right now! About being Blunt and how sometimes its a good thing, about dating and how confusing it is and about well just life in general I guess and how everyday is a challenge but in the end its worth it! I wish I could write more to make it sound better but I just don't think I can so if you can understand this stuff Good for you! :) if not I'm sorry but Good night! ;)

Haha Superman! even he tries to be blunt and Im sure eventually it works out but well ... anyway ... we all try our best to make something work out well!! :) -night! :)

A day in the life of Naomi ...

2008-09-26T00:55:00.005-06:00

BRACE YOURSELF its intense!! .... NOT!! .... haha ...

I just thought this picture was cute and it very much resembles me as of right now! ;) sometimes my thoughts can get the better of me ... because I think too much about stuff I probably don't need to think about but as is life right? ;) ... hehe ...

... SO a day in the life of me ... well obviously its late at night so I like to stay up late ... but I try to get up early and try to start my day ... except I don't have a job yet and (side note) whenever I say that to people they always try to fix it! ... with thoughts of, "Have you looked on Craig's list yet?" "have you gone to places and put your resume out yet?" and so on and so forth! it makes me feel good that people want to help with the ideas of how to get started but at the same time ... of course I have done that ... haha ;) ... sigh I'm just kinda frustrated that it hasn't worked yet ... but then again I think maybe its all for the best ... who knows what else it is that my time is supposed to be open for ...? ... I don't know, its a thought ... anyway other then Job hunting I have been trying to make use of my time by just working out! ... so every day, later in the day, usually around 5ish I go for a run! ... which is wonderful because I can run thoughts off in my head and work out any frustrations and what not that I might have at the time ... but I think that I'm going to start running earlier in the morning instead of when I am now ...? ... I think I might be getting shin splints ... because I find myself limping a little more and feeling a sharp pain in my shins ... haha ;P ... anyway so maybe that would explain it ... ? other then that I usually clean the apartment and then wait till school gets out so that maybe someone will come over and want to do something or even call or text ...? ... but that rarely happens so I just end up watching a movie or going for a walk or just ... well I don't know what else but I try something ... anyway so but this weekend is going to be different!! :D I'm going camping!! :) my next door neighbors invited a ton of people to go camping and many have bailed on the idea .. so now its just a select few but I am in that select few so that's exciting ... gosh ... sometimes I feel so lame out here though ... sorry for the abrupt change ... but I think its because everyone is doing something, school work, work, getting together with a group of friends, Dating or just something as for me I'm in the drought/slow lane of that section of life ... sometimes I wish that I could talk about all that I'm learning in school again, or just get to know more people ... I mean I have recently been able to hang out with an amazing group of guys across the way from my apartment, so that's been a lot of fun! ... I think the main reason why I like getting together with them so much is because they remind me of my Brothers!! and well ... one of them I'm kinda crushing on, but that's another story and he knows it (I'm just excited how things are working out in that area) ... so but ANYWAY ... these guys are all so awesome, talented and just fun to be around! Its just fun to be able to see some great men who don't mind hanging out with me ... :) but other then all that, that's pretty much my life, every once in a while the guys will invite me and my roomies over and then well that's about it, I don't know sometimes I miss home and all that my life was filled with there but then I remember that I came here to gain more experiences and well I deal with it and try to make the best of my time ... one day I know I will find out why I decided to move out here ... but until then Ill continue taking one step at a time ... "just put one foot in front of the other ..." (Sung by Mr. Winter in Santa Claus is coming to Town) Great movie by the way ... Well Anyway .. I think I'm going to head off to bed right now and maybe wake up early enough to run when its still cool outside :) that's always a nice feeling! :) ... I hope this entry isn't to mumble jumbled and it makes some sort of sense! :) until next time enjoy ;)
-Naomi

P.S. the pictures I got from the Internet but I put them up because they kind of resemble my mood and the unspoken/unwritten words in this blog! ;) ... thanks for reading! ;) Night <3

True Smiles! :D

2008-09-22T01:11:00.004-06:00

Well I am LOVING Utah so far! I have great roommies and I have met a lot of Great new people! :) I never thought that I would be having so much fun just with being on my own and stuff! :) I mean I really miss my family but I am just having a great time being out on my own, making my own decisions and so on! :)

Anyway ... I just was here sitting in my room thinking to myself about lots of things ... and the first thing that came to me was the thought of Smiles ... :D ... you know how there are those smiles that are true and others that are just plain lame and you can tell its being forced ... ? anyway I wanted to talk about it because well lately all of my smiles have been absolutely True happy smiles!!! sometimes I just cant stop smiling! ... but that's another story ... ha ha :) ... (OK side note: right now my roommate is listening to some music of all random sorts! ... I love it because she sings to it and just goes into her own world when the music is on! I love it! but I'm not going to lie it is kinda hard to concentrate, I think I'm going to go get some ear plugs and ... hold on ... ok I'm listening to my own music now so we are good! :) moving on ... lets see what other kind of randomness I can put together for today's blog :D ...) anyway about smiles it just made me think of a song that I love and that was sung by a VERY cute little girl who's name is Shirley Temple (Love her!) ... anyway I truly believe that this song has such true meaning because when I first got up here I was not having the best of time, I missed my family, my friends back home and just wasn't having much success with being sociable ... but then one day I realized that it was my own dang fault!! and that I needed to decide on my own attitude and just S.M.I.L.E just like in this song! :)

Shirley Temple
Song Lyrics
You Gotta S-M-I-L-E To Be H-A-P-P-Y
(Stowaway 1936)

Lyrics/Music Mack Gordon and Harry Revel

Picture: Original Sheet Music cover
Sound Clip: ©1997 Iris Musique

If something may upset you
Don't ever let it get you down
Don't wear a frown

If fortune should forsake you
Don't ever let it make you sigh
Keep shooting high.

Be a crooner, not a groaner, never kick
Here's a spelling lesson that will do the trick

You've got to S-M-I-L-E
To be H-A-Double-P-Y
Keep it in mind when you're blue
It's easy to spell and just as easy to do
You gotta S-M-I-L-E
It's gonna help considerably.
Just keep your chin up and give it a try
And you'll find silver lined clouds in the sky
You've gotta S-M-I-L-E
To be H-A-Double-P-Y

Ladies and gentlemen, just for fun
I'd like to sing this song again
The way it would be done, by...
Al Jolson, Eddie Cantor, and last but not least
That swingable pair: Ginger Rogers and Fred Astaire
You've gotta S-M-I-L-E, Oh like the birdies,
Birdies birdies up in the trees..
Pretty flowers, April showers, my Mammy
Life is divine at a quarter to nine

You've simply gotta S-M-I-L-E
'Cos Potatoes are cheaper you see
I won't spend a nickel
I won't spend a sou
I just want to spend one hour with you
(kiss)(kiss)(kiss) S-M-I-L-E
Parkyakarkus with Ida, Mammy!

Anyway I would listen to this song all the time when I was a little girl! I just loved the meaning of "Be Happy!" and knowing that it was you that made the choice to be happy! *sigh* I just love the thought of that because it is so true! and I know that that is what the lord would have us know! because it is us!! we are the ones who have the agency to call upon ourselves and even our dear father in heaven! He loves us and only wants us to be happy! and when things turn sour its just as hard on him as it is for us! ... sorry I'm going to expand upon a little more on another song that makes me smile ... well most do because I love music so much but Jesse Clark Funk sings a song entitled "Better then I" in the song she just tell about how we all go through trials where we try and try to understand something we are going through but its just not our time to know why things are happening certain ways! We just need to have faith in Christ and just know that he knows better then us! In a part of the song she says:
"For You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go, the need to know why
Cause You know better than I

I saw one cloud and thought it was the sky
I saw a bird and thought that I could follow
But it was You who taught them how to fly
If I let you reach me, will You teach me

For You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go, the need to know why
I'll take what answers You supply
Cause You know better than I"

anyway ... I guess the moral of this is try not to let things get you down! just remember he is there for you always! Make the choice to smile and know he knows better then we do and the things we go through make us who we are now or in the future! ... anyway but its getting late for me ... its about 2am and time for me to get some shut eye ... I hope you enjoyed this post and I will talk to you all later! :D

Experimenting!! .... :)

2008-09-14T01:48:00.013-06:00

So lately I have been experimenting with my photos! they are very premature and well just amateur shots but I have been playing around with what I have on my comp to fix them up and I just wanted some input on them! :) It would be great to hear what you all have to say about them! I don't think I really have a style or what not yet but I love being able to do this! :) so ... I will try and explain one if I can but well I just hope you like them but don't try to be nice! :) please I need your help so constructive criticism would be great! :) I love you all! thanks! :) Enjoy! ;)

This one is my favorite!! the little girl that was at the beach that day was SO cute!

I hope you all enjoyed! also If you could tell me what you think of the name "Naomi Dawn Photo" Im not sure what I think about it yet so if you could ... well that would just be great! :) I love you all! thank you for reading and your input! :) I love you!! :)

Cooking!!!!!!!! :) Mmmmmmmmmm! :)

2008-09-11T23:57:00.007-06:00

Well I am SUPER excited!! :) Because today I made REALLY good food!!! :) Mmmmmm! Delicious!!! I made chicken and rice!! I'm super proud of myself because I have never made it on my own before! AND I made up my own delicious recipe!! :) I made Rice in my small rice cooker and I wanted it to have flavor SO ... now this may sound weird but its actually really good, and its the only thing I had that sounded like a good flavorful something! :) anyway ... I cooked the rice with tomato soup! :) so I did 2 cups of rice 3 cups of water and 1 cup or tomato soup!! :) Mmmm its really god with salt and pepper and a little more soup on top! MMMmmmmmm! :) anyway so then for the chicken I let it thaw and then I put it in a pan with oil and let it cook a little before I started seasoning it! :) Mmmmm! I seasoned it with Montreal chicken seasoning and with garlic salt! and since I was going with a tomato base for the rice I put the tomato sauce in for more flavor!!! :) Mmmmmmm! So good! :) and then luckily my roommate had some salad so ... I had a small salad!! I took pics so here is the final product!! :)

Rice in the Cooker!! :) Step One! :)

Chicken Cooking in the pan! Step Two-ish!! :D

I cut the one piece of chicken in to 3rds so it would cook faster! :)
This is the next step! :) putting it on the plate to enjoy! :)

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!!! the Final Product!! Simply WONDERFUL!! :)

I am super proud of myself and what I made!! :) I just had to show it off! :) using all of my own Pans and Plates and so on!! :) It was supper fun and I was surprised it turned out So well! :) my roommates said it smelt really good! and they thought it tasted good too! :) Woo-Hoo! a SUCCESS!!! :) EXCITING!! :D I cant wait for the next cooking experiance! :) -Night!! :)

Feelings ...

2008-09-09T17:59:00.011-06:00

Well I have been living in Provo now for a good week and I finally got my Internet up! :) but I had so many things waiting for me in my emails and such, from not checking it for a good 2 1/2 weeks because of all the craziness with the move and all, I'm still trying to catch up!! :( ... overwhelming there but Ill get it! :) anyway so some of you wanted to see the pics of the hole in our couch so ...

That is our lovely hole!! :) I put blankets on top of it too see if it would help ... and it kind of does but ... well sometimes you can still sink .... haha its really funny ... I dont really think the picture shows the hole very well but there you go! :) anyway I did take some pics of the apartment so ... Ill show them to you! :)

That is our apartment as of now except we just recently got a sunflower picture up above the couches and plants on the table! :) its exciting! :) I really like living out on my own except I was getting a lot of depressing feelings the other day because I miss California!! and all my family and friends down there ... but the other day I looked myself in the mirror and said to myself ENOUGH!!! Be happy! you have a choice!! I was able to talk with some of my family including my brother Grant, my sister Alicia and my mom ... as well as some friends from back home and they all told me Im just getting used to being in a new place! :) Its a lot of fun though ... new experiances are always a fun experiance! :) ... anyway so thats where the title of feelings comes from ... well and the fact that it can get depressing seeing all of the couples around and its like the only thing people talk about are relationships! ... and I dont even want a relationship right now ... I mean I do but Im not wanting to SEEK it out thats not the reason I came out here so ... but it can get to you because I mean I am in freaking Provo for petes sake! :) haha ... anyway so I was kind of just thinking of all that lately ... but I am really liking the whole experiance! Im still Job hunting but I have a couple possibilities ... like with a wisdom teeth place and then my friend sent out my aplication to a couple of his friends companies so ... :) thats exiting Im just waiting to hear back mean while I am leaning to be obediant and keep searching! :) ... anyway ... I also dyed my hair ... I really like it but ... thats just me and then my roomates say they like it! :) its just darker ... :) not a crazy change just Dark Brown! :) its nice I really like it! :) ... but anyway other then all that Im really liking this whole experiance so far even though its been a little bummpy! :) ... so I love you all and I will update soon!! :) ttyl!! <3

The move and all that stuff! :)

2008-09-03T01:11:00.002-06:00

Well! I feel that I am finally making progress in moving here! :) Let me start with my arival on friday afternoon ... I had never met any of my roomates except Alisha whom I knew before hand ... so I came in on friday said hi, dropped more of my stuff off and then I headed right back out! :) ... I felt like such a bad roomate because I didnt come home till late at night and well anyway I just didnt get much time with my roomates because my friends were visiting just for the weekend so it was going to be the last time in a long time that I would get to see them! :) so ... ayway that was pretty crazy but eventually I got to meet my other two Sweet roomates! :) both girls are from Orem and they are both freshman at UVU ... anyway they are super adorable! :) we went to our first day of church and took pics for the ward directory! :) ... (interesting) ... :) anyway our apartment is kind of older and falling apart and when we got to know others in our apartment we noticed we were missing a couple things too like shelves and better couches ... (ours has a HUGE hole in it!! We fixed it though with blankets! ... haha) anyway so our floor creaks everywhere and the way they had the funiture set up was so generic ... :) so ... what my roomate Sadie and I decided to do was we decided to re-arange the furniture!! :) it looks so good now!! Def. more homey :) I really like it! :) ill put up pics another time but its not that bad anymore! and I have only been living here for about 4 days but its long enough to get things kind of in order! :) I really like this whole living on my own thing! :) but now I just have to find a job and finish unpacking! :) ... I really like it so far .... I finally today made pancakesfor the first time!! :) Mmmmmm they were SOOOooooo Gooooood! I even serverd some to my roomate Natalie! :) I was so proud of myself! :) and then I finally got my internet up and running and just everything! :) Im really liking it but at the same time I am REALLY missing my family .... but that doesnt mean im not loving it out here! :) I am now just afraid of the snow that will be coming ... :O ... we will just have to see how that all works out but until then I am enjoying the weather here and my roomies and just the living ... :) I will update again soon! until then Good Night! :) I hope you enjoyed a little more about whats going on with me! :) ... <3 -Night! :)

Starting New!

2008-08-25T14:52:00.000-06:00

Well I was up in Utah for a good week on the BYU campus going to Education week, WONDERFUL week by the way!! I had a chance to move in and to just check out what is going to be around me! :) and since I was there so early I got to pick out which room and bed I wanted first!! :) so that was nice! :) ... anyway the apartment is nice Kind of old an falling apart but its nice! :) one thing that I found really funny about the apartmet is that the ink counters are really low to the floor!!! haha seriously they are just above my knees!! its like the bathroom was made for midgets!! ... I thought I was short but ... well ... I was wrong! :) lol eve the toilet is low to the ground and the tub ... so ... thats kind of funny! :) we are on the second floor RIGHT next to the lounge room and the pool and jacuzzi!! :) so party area!! that should be fun! :) ... anyway so Im excited my roomates I hear are pretty cool Alisha is sharing the room with me and she says that our other 2 roomates are freshman and they seem to be really cute girls! :) so Im excited to meet them! :) anyway so much has happened in so little time but Idont know if I should talk about it all because Im still not sure whats going on so that might be in my next update! :) I just have to set up my computer and all when I go back up on Friday!! :) woo-hoo! the world of change! But im REALLY going to miss CALIFONIA!!! :( ... anyway thats the update for now!! :) ttyl! :)

How do you customize this thing??

2008-08-07T14:12:00.000-06:00

Man! So I’m trying so hard to figure this whole thing out and then I was looking at everyone’s blogs and noticing that they are so cute and not the custom templates that the blog gives you at first ... they are all cute and different! so I went on one of my friends blogs and it had a web site on the side of where to go to get your own custom blog background ( http://thecutestblogontheblock.com/ ) ... so I found one I think I like but I figured I would just try it to see if it would work ... it didn’t ... :( obviously!! Because if you look closely you can see at the top left corner some red ... well it’s suppose to be a Beautiful Butterfly! ... But its not getting rid of the old background now ... and I have no idea how to do it!! :( And the thing said it would be easy...? Maybe I’m just not good at this stuff?? ... So anyway, if any of you could help me figure out how to customize my blog I would really be thankful!! I like the old one but I want something that’s really me ... so ... ??? Anyone?? ... Please! :)

A FUN GROUP DATE!!!

2008-08-06T11:36:00.000-06:00

Well this has been an eventful couple of days!! :) I have been hanging out with friends before I leave and all so we all decided we wanted to go out and have sushi!! So we planned for Tuesday night to go out and eat sushi!! :) Now just about a week or 2 ago I visited the Palomar ward and I went to a game night thing with Jesse at our friend Josh's house and that is when I met Tati and Jackie!! We all just kinda hit it off and now we hang out ALL the time! It is great! so anyway back to sushi! Sorry side note there! lol ... anyway so the boys (Jesse and Josh ... I’m not sure if the others were in the idea too but...?) anyway so the boys came up with the idea to make it a group date! so Monday night Jackie and Tati were having a movie night but I told her I probably would just stay home ... that’s when Josh called me and said that I had to be there! But he wouldn’t tell me why just that it would be worth it! lol ... anyway so he finally talked me into it and I headed off to Tati's house when I showed up they were watching a scary movie (what lies beneath) ... well scary to me :) haha and well Tati and Jackie didn’t know what was going on either! ... so I stayed for a long time jumping at all the scary parts of the movie and most likely bugging Jon who was sitting next to me haha ... what a good sport! ... When finally one of the guys that was at the movie night thing with us said that he saw some guys putting stuff on my car!! (my first thought was, Its not my car! its Jesse's! he let me borrow it!!) So Jackie and I went outside and that’s when we found 3 poster signs on the car with cute sayings and stuff asking us out on dates! :) Tati's had a candle on it and it said something like baby light my fire or something and then Jackie's had Swedish fish all over it and it said some cute thing of course about the fish and then mine was written with Oreos and said Got Date? lol ... but I didn’t get to read it because I was too short so I pulled it down and that’s when the dog attacked and ate some of the Oreos and leaving the sign unreadable! :) ... haha ... Just my luck! ... :) but no worries I texted josh and he told me what it said! ... lol anyway so then after that we went back in finished the movie and of course I was kinda scared by this point that Jon walked me out to my car like the nice guy he is and checked my car for any scary people or dead people and what not and then I was on my way home! haha Thanks Jon! :) lol ... anyway so The date was Tuesday night so the all of the girls went to Josh's house to start with and then the date began! :) There were 11 of us because one of the guys brought on of his friends ... poor guy didnt even know it was a date thing so he was like the 11th wheel! :) haha anyway we all went to sushi and my date Mike was super nice because I’m not a big fan of fish let alone RAW FISH!!! :o ... haha anyway so we got stuff that had like crab or shrimp or anything but straight fish! Super nice of him! :) But I still tried new things that others had because they wanted me too so I figured why not! You only live once! :) lol anyway so that was awesome ... after that we went to this mall place and that is where the picture scavenger hunt began ... we all split up and had to take pics of different things instructed! I must say that mike and I made a good team with all of our stuff! Ill have to put up pics later!! :) ... anyway when mike and I finish taking our pics we went to get Ice cream!! :) MMMMmmmm! YuM!! :) Then we all met back up and headed off to a gelato place where everyone else got Gelato and then we looked over all of our clever pictures! :) It was a fantastic night! Great date! I haven’t ever been on a date that was so creative before so Im excited that I finally did and it was a blast! Anyway but that was our fun date night and I finally got to bed at like 2:30! WOW! FUN stuff!! :) it was exciting!! Anyway till the next adventure ttyl! :)

Movie Night next to Jon! Man I was so scared! Thanks Jon for being such a good sport! :)

On the Group date with Mike! :) Mmmmmm Sushi! :)

Some of the Group! :) ... Oh Yeah! WE WENT TO THE TEMPLE!! :) for like 5 mins! :)

The group minus one who was taking the pic! :) he didnt have a date ... :( poor guy!

These are my two favorite girls!! :)

And again!! <3 :)

HOUSING!!! :) WOO HOO!!!

2008-08-04T11:19:00.000-06:00

Well you know how I was out of housing just a couple days ago?? :) Well ... I’m not now!!! :P I have an AMAZING roommate and she is the one who found this amazing apartment in Provo!! :) ... I am so excited we are on the 2nd floor and its going to be an apartment of 4 girls! so ... I will be heading up on the 18th with my family and then most likely come back with them on the 23rd and then go back up on the 27th with a friend! :) I’m really excited! But it seems like now that I’m moving I’m hanging out with a lot more people from the Palomar ward! :) one of which is going up to Utah with me! :) I’m really excited!! :) My next Blog I will have to write about our Friday night Adventure!! :) so Just tune in next time!! ;) haha Laters! :)

Well ... life .... UTAH ... Moving ... ETC. :)

2008-07-31T11:36:00.000-06:00

So Things seem to be working out really well so far! except well housing and job haha! I WILL FIND SOMETHING!!! Im pretty sure I will everything else seems to be working out so far! ... I put in my 3 weeks notice, my car seems to be working well, my mom and dad are already telling people Im moving so they seem really excited/ ok with the idea! ... and well I just need to start sorting what Im bringing and what Im not brining! haha ... man! but I have to go out and get those compact vacumm bags! it will make things fit so much better! and I got the idea from a great friend who has moved A LOT! ;) anyway but other then all that I have met some great people down here cuz I went to visit the Palomar ward one sunday and went to a game night ... anyway I met some more people going up!! I have no doubt I will most likely miss Cali and it will prbablly be hard to be away but I think Im going to have lots of fun! :) Im excited but kinda scared at the same time! :) ... this should be good though for me! :) ... so other then all that Im still just moving forward with life and enjoying the time I do have down here! :) with Friend and family!! :) <3

Finally an update!

2008-07-29T14:55:00.000-06:00

Well! Sorry for being so LAME and not updateing!!! Im horrible at that and right now Im at work so this cant be long but let me tell you of the recent happenings!! I have just recently bought a Canon 40D EOS Camera with a 28-135mm lens!!!! :) I LOVE IT!! its my new toy, and Im still trying to figure it all out!!! :) as well I am going to be moving to Provo Utah at the end of Aug! so I am hitting crunch time!! I have so much to do and so little time to do it!! :) ... kinda scared but really excited at the same time Ill just be moving up there for work and the experiance of getting out of the house, plus my little brother is going up there so Im excited to be up there with him before he goes on his Mission!! Im not sure how he feels about it though totally ... haha but oh well Im going anyway! :) ... other then that I am STILL TOTALLY single ... no one wants to date me long enough for it to matter so ... oh well thats fine Im kinda done with that scene anyway! ... but my camera fills that void really well! to be honest! I love just going out with it on my trips to the beach! but now that I am moving to Utah it will be cold so Im not sure what ill do ... :( Ill figure something out Im sure! haha ... so ... but other then missing the Beach, my family and MANY Great friends down here Im excited!! :) I have a lot of friends and family up there so I cant wait to see them!! like Sabrina and Bruce, my cousins Veronica, Jessica, AZ, Erin, AND SO MANY MORE!! I have a really cute Roomate named Alisha So Im REALLY REALLY excited to get to know her more and what not! but my next purchase is a laptop so I will make sure to keep you all updated even when Im up there! until then Lunch is over so I have to go! enjoy! love you all! :) ... well If I know you! which I should! :) laters! <3

One of my first shots with my camera!

Another shot in the mirror the writting on the mirror say "Endure To The End" :)

Yup! Im a newbee!! :)

2008-06-12T11:13:00.000-06:00

Well right now Im at work! and I thought I would start one of these babies up because a lot of my friends have been getting one and said I should ... so I guess you can say I gave into the pressure and well here I am! :) so far so good ... kinda confusing and I have no idea who would even want to read this thing but Ive got it! :) lol exciting! ... well I guess I should use it to update everyone on my life ...? ... my life ... hmmm ... what to say what to say? :) I guess its going fairly well so far! :) Im still working at a dental office and not going to school yet but I WILL after the summer because I already feel like such a bum! ... Im turning 20 here in about 9 days! ... but whos counting? I dont know ... Im sure nobody will even really remember anyway ... lol which is fine because I almost forgot this year to until like yesturday I was looking at the comp. and realized we are already in June!! lol wow does time fly!! ... anyway other then that I am planning on getting a great camera, its a canon 40D SLR, EOS!! :) you see Im not very camera smart, meaning if someone came up to me and started talking "camera talk" I would have no idea ... but if you give me a camera I can take it and figure it out! I hate manuals but I will use them to learn more!! :) I most likely am not as good as many of my friends who know about all this stuff but I just love the feeling of being able to capture beauty in an already beautiful world! There is beauty all around and I love trying to capture it! :) I realized that I wanted one of these at my friends wedding! Sabrina & Bruce! one of the best couples I have ever met by the way, but she lent me and my sister Alicia her camera and well I took the camera for the most part and just kept shooting!! :) I LOVED IT!! :) anyway so yeah we will see where this goes! :) Im going to take a couple classes and so ... :) anyway this is so far but I should post this and see what else I can do on this thing so ... enjoy! :)